I was very excited when I received phone call from a friend of mine saying that he was short-listed for the JPA Scholarship Interview. After congratulating him, I quickly logged on to JPA Scholarship Interview Short-List. I typed in my IC number and clicked the 'hantar' button. To my surprise, I saw the following message.
Maaf. Permohonan [my IC number] tidak berjaya.
Suddenly, I shouted: "Unfair, our government is unfair!"
My mother came out from the kitchen (she was busy washing dinner plates at that moment) and tried to comfort me. After five minutes, I finally accepted the truth, the evil truth.
Yes, I am a straight As student. I got nine 1As and two 2As for my 2005 SPM. I still remember the day SPM result was released. I was quite happy and depressed at the same time when I received my SPM results. I scored 1As in Bahasa Melayu, Bahasa Inggeris, Sejarah, Matematik, Matematik Tambahan, Fizik, Kimia, Biologi and English for Science and Technology (EST). I even got 1A for my GCE O level (English 1119). However, I got 2As in my Pendidikan Moral and Bahasa Cina.
The first question I had asked myself was 'Am I a Chinese?'. These two subjects are the SPM subjects taken by most Chinese students. I speak Chinese and think in Chinese. I even took part in Chinese Debate Competition at national level last year. Why can't I get 1As for Bahasa Cina? Pendidikan Moral is just another 'kacang' or simple-to-score subject for most of the students. Later in the evening, I applied JPA Scholarship for the course Computer Science. I knew that I was decreasing my chance if I applied Medic, Pharmacy or Engineering related course.
I never realize that our government is such evil that JPA didn't give me a chance to attend the interview. For sure, I will not blame the government if I failed in the interview. Why can't YOU give me a chance?
I can't sleep tonight although it is 3:23am as I write this post. I want to log the first JPA complaint of the year in this blog. I am sure that this is the first complaint after checking the local medias' websites.
After reading my own post, The Numbers Tell the Truth, I feel that I am too childish to complain anything in this case. Perhaps there are many more As candidates out there fail to go to the interview. Perhaps many straight 1As students target Computer Science. Perhaps I will do better in my STPM... I start to feel asleep now.
For those succeed to win the Scholarships in the end, make sure you really appreciate it and feel thankful to our government. Malaysia Boleh!
Update: I rechecked on 3rd April 2006 and found out that I was short-listed to attend the JPA Scholarship Interview. Liked this post? Subscribe now to read more post like this one! Tweet